neu-rot-ic[noo-rot-ik, nyoo-]
-adjective
1. of, pertaining to, or characteristic of neurosis--a functional disorder in which feelings of anxiety, obsessional thoughts, compulsive acts, and physical complaints without objective evidence of disease, in various degrees and patterns, dominate the personality. A relatively mild personality disorder typified by excessive anxiety or indecision and a degree of social or interpersonal maladjustment.
-noun
2. a neurotic person.
3. a journalist.
You'll only find two out of three of those definitions in Webster's. Still, there might be a smidge of evidence that some jittery cub reporter's portrait should be added to the entry.
A snapshot of me wearing a fedora and press pass would be an ok fit. I propose the definition, first of all, because of experience.
1. Feelings of anxiety? Check. Any time I've got an assignment. So much to prove, so little time.
2. Obsessional thoughts? Check. But it's all in the name of thorough research.
3. A degree of social or interpersonal maladjustment? Check. Awkward adolescence aside, grilling complete strangers isn't without a certain social discomfort.
4. Physical complaints without objective evidence of disease? I haven't stayed home with a sudden case of avian flu yet, but hey, I'm still new at this.
Mind you, I have other evidence besides my own minor hang-ups to show the dictionary editors.
The final paragraphs of this recent CJR Daily article (which, for those RRJ-ers reading, may prove as good blog fodder for those of you reflecting on the drinking habits adopted during your university careers) are notable:
Psychologists have shown that neurotics can make good journalists when they project their inner doubts and dissatisfactions onto the world. This is the energy behind investigative reporting and the source of journalism's vaunted distrust of power, the argument goes. "Rage is the only quality which has kept me, or anybody I have ever studied, writing columns for newspapers," Breslin says.
For good or ill, journalism and neurosis may be inextricably caught up together, tangled in the timeless conundrum of what comes first. Does the profession break talented people with steady pressure, severe constraints, and public censure for missteps? Or does it attract broken talent who seek unstable schedules, extreme experiences, and the megalomaniacal pleasure of their name in print?
It's unclear from the article whether the study in question is the one that's the focus of the piece or another such as this one. However, the sentiment is something I've been encountering for years as a student journalist.
The first I remember hearing it was years back, during my wide-eyed student press days, while attending a west-coast CUP conference. The lecturer, a Canwest movie critic, was reflecting on her career and said that all journalists were neurotics. The phrase was quickly circled in my notebook, highlighted out of equal parts horror and consolation. Over the years, it became a note I took several more times during lectures--up until this morning's talk by Ernest Hillen in our magazine writing class.
I'd like to (rather uncharacteristically) spin neurosis as a positive for the profession. Much like the CJR quote suggests, a natural tendency for dissatisfaction leads to important journalistic traits. When projected on the world around her, the journalist/neurotic becomes a tireless questioner of the powers that be. And when those tendencies towards dissatisfaction are applied personally, the neurotic/journalist is perhaps motivated to perform to her fullest potential.
Now if only this obsessive hand-washing habit of mine wouldn't keep me from staying on deadline.